Just got my life fortune told and it was not so good in terms of my love life. Haha! What is new? Apparently, I am not suited for marriage and if I do, there would be lots of quarrels and unhappiness. How true!
The sad part is that the person that I like is also not suited for marriage. Well, I guess the not-so-sad part would be that I can let go and not try to imagine him as my potential boyfriend.
Funny thing was that I dreamed of him as my boyfriend this afternoon while I had a nap!! We were so lovey-dovey and intimate and it was so real that I could not believe myself (in the dream of course).
Apparently, I will only get lucky after I turn 42 or so. What is the point, right? Anyway, I shall TRY to concentrate on other parts of my life that are OK and hope that life would not be so tough.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Proud of my dad, and some thoughts
I must say that I am proud of my Dad and envious of him too. He has done things that I would never dare dream of doing. He just finished a series of 2 talks with the National Library. One was at Woodlands Library and the other (that just happened yesterday) was at the Bukit Merah Library.
The first talk, which was on Chinese Oldies, saw a turnout of about 50 people. The second, 100 over. This was all thanks to his good network of friends, who themselves are also promoting Chinese Oldies, who helped him to promote his talk as well.
I think it is no mean feat to be standing in front of so many people to do a talk, but I guess it is a subject that he likes and is close to his heart and therefore, he does not have any difficulty in conducting the talk at all.
I find myself so inadequate next to him and it leads me to think back to my own same old question as to why should people be so competitive. Why should they want to outshine other people and step and trample on others while trying to prove their own self-worth? By belittling others, does that make that person a better person?
Well, I suppose such is life and sometimes (even as I sound pessimistic), I feel that I am not of this world; that I may never fit in and am always standing on the outside looking in. People have also never attempted to include me into this world. They have always seen me standing outside and left me there.
Such are my thoughts sometimes. It is a recurring thought and I suppose, I should jump away from this thought in order to shift my paradigm (Stephen Covey) and go for some change (Haha! Cliche!).
The first talk, which was on Chinese Oldies, saw a turnout of about 50 people. The second, 100 over. This was all thanks to his good network of friends, who themselves are also promoting Chinese Oldies, who helped him to promote his talk as well.
I think it is no mean feat to be standing in front of so many people to do a talk, but I guess it is a subject that he likes and is close to his heart and therefore, he does not have any difficulty in conducting the talk at all.
I find myself so inadequate next to him and it leads me to think back to my own same old question as to why should people be so competitive. Why should they want to outshine other people and step and trample on others while trying to prove their own self-worth? By belittling others, does that make that person a better person?
Well, I suppose such is life and sometimes (even as I sound pessimistic), I feel that I am not of this world; that I may never fit in and am always standing on the outside looking in. People have also never attempted to include me into this world. They have always seen me standing outside and left me there.
Such are my thoughts sometimes. It is a recurring thought and I suppose, I should jump away from this thought in order to shift my paradigm (Stephen Covey) and go for some change (Haha! Cliche!).
Home cooking
I had a lazy day today, but I would say, quite productive in the morning. I walked from home to Pek Kio Hawker Centre with my Dad to have breakfast. After that, I bought some very nice and fresh romaine lettuce and mushrooms to cook for lunch.
We then walked to City Square Mall (again!) to get some bacon and some stuff from Popular Bookstore before taking the free shuttle home. Technically speaking, we did not spend a cent on transportation.
The dish I cooked up was, in my opinion, was yummy! I just thought it off my head but I suppose, there was a little inspiration from watching "Jamie at home". He was cooking romaine lettuce the other day and I felt I had to get me some to cook too!
I fried the garlic first with olive oil and mixed it with Aminos (the equivalent of soy sauce in my household). Then I mixed all the linguini into the sauce. My inspiration came from those balsamic vinegar salad dressings that I so often see the chefs make on Discovery and Living Channel.
Next, I fried the bacon bits that I have chopped up earlier from the streaky bacon that I bought. Sweat it out a bit before finally putting in the romaine lettuce. Gave it a good stir and then put it on top of the linguini. Yum!
Last week, I cooked hairy gourd with dried scallops. Thought it was very good for a first-time experiment, except Dad did not like the fact that I did not have vermicelli. He said, that would have made more a Cantonese dish. I told him that this was an updated (and my own) version of the take on the "auntie marries off her daughter" (the name of the dish. We usually use dried shrimps and vermicelli to fry with the hairy gourd. Except that I did not particularly want to eat or cook vermicelli that day. Felt it was something that was not easy to handle/cook.
I find that as I get older, I am more prone to experimenting with food and this cooking thing is growing on me. I have not gotten the oven yet but when the time is right, when I am ready to do more baking, I think I would invest in one OK one. Then there are the mixers and such...the list goes on. Must focus on Amsterdam trip!
We then walked to City Square Mall (again!) to get some bacon and some stuff from Popular Bookstore before taking the free shuttle home. Technically speaking, we did not spend a cent on transportation.
The dish I cooked up was, in my opinion, was yummy! I just thought it off my head but I suppose, there was a little inspiration from watching "Jamie at home". He was cooking romaine lettuce the other day and I felt I had to get me some to cook too!
I fried the garlic first with olive oil and mixed it with Aminos (the equivalent of soy sauce in my household). Then I mixed all the linguini into the sauce. My inspiration came from those balsamic vinegar salad dressings that I so often see the chefs make on Discovery and Living Channel.
Next, I fried the bacon bits that I have chopped up earlier from the streaky bacon that I bought. Sweat it out a bit before finally putting in the romaine lettuce. Gave it a good stir and then put it on top of the linguini. Yum!
Last week, I cooked hairy gourd with dried scallops. Thought it was very good for a first-time experiment, except Dad did not like the fact that I did not have vermicelli. He said, that would have made more a Cantonese dish. I told him that this was an updated (and my own) version of the take on the "auntie marries off her daughter" (the name of the dish. We usually use dried shrimps and vermicelli to fry with the hairy gourd. Except that I did not particularly want to eat or cook vermicelli that day. Felt it was something that was not easy to handle/cook.
I find that as I get older, I am more prone to experimenting with food and this cooking thing is growing on me. I have not gotten the oven yet but when the time is right, when I am ready to do more baking, I think I would invest in one OK one. Then there are the mixers and such...the list goes on. Must focus on Amsterdam trip!
Out of the house
I almost did not get out of the house today. I was almost going to turn mouldy in an empty house. Dad and Mum had gone to Bukit Merah Library where Dad was going to give his final series of talks. He is just so amazing, but that is another story which I might blog about later.
I was contemplating whether to go to City Square Mall to cut my hair. The last time I was there, I was given a pamphlet by this hair salon and it kinda looked good. There was a free shuttle from the town centre so that was not really a problem. The real problem was walking from home to town centre, especially now that I do not own a car anymore.
I finally made it out of the house but I was in-between times: the previous free shuttle bus had left and the next one will only come in about 15 minutes. Decided to walk to Old Chang Kee to get some munchies. After all, it is going to be 3pm and I haven't had my lunch.
Going up the shuttle was already a long queue (and I almost could not make it) and then when I reached the mall, there was another beeline for the ATM. Lunch became tunch and it was quite late when I decided to go check out the price from Creme hairdressing. I had wanted to cut and do treatment.
There was no usual frustration as I slowly explained what I wanted (even though I did not really know what I want except that I had wanted bangs). I was also very assertive as to what I wanted and did not want. She was trying to push for me to do another scalp treatment and I told her (more than once) that I would just try out the present one that she has on offer before trying the other treatment next time.
All in all, I am very satisfied with the cut and treatment today. It is almost like Reds, my previous, previous hair salon but more expensive than the one at Toa Payoh Lorong one. This one might be it for me.
Oh yes, forgot to mention that while I was having lunch on the fourth floor food court, I had a nice and full view of the the Thaipusam parade. There was also the Haiti Relief Fund-raising and I did my part but did not stay back to see the performances though. I saw Babe Conde trying out the piano but felt that it would be too late for me if I stayed back to wait for the concert to start at 8pm.
Did I just "all in all"? Well that was for the hairy issues. In general though, I enjoyed my day and am glad to have made it out of the house :)
I was contemplating whether to go to City Square Mall to cut my hair. The last time I was there, I was given a pamphlet by this hair salon and it kinda looked good. There was a free shuttle from the town centre so that was not really a problem. The real problem was walking from home to town centre, especially now that I do not own a car anymore.
I finally made it out of the house but I was in-between times: the previous free shuttle bus had left and the next one will only come in about 15 minutes. Decided to walk to Old Chang Kee to get some munchies. After all, it is going to be 3pm and I haven't had my lunch.
Going up the shuttle was already a long queue (and I almost could not make it) and then when I reached the mall, there was another beeline for the ATM. Lunch became tunch and it was quite late when I decided to go check out the price from Creme hairdressing. I had wanted to cut and do treatment.
There was no usual frustration as I slowly explained what I wanted (even though I did not really know what I want except that I had wanted bangs). I was also very assertive as to what I wanted and did not want. She was trying to push for me to do another scalp treatment and I told her (more than once) that I would just try out the present one that she has on offer before trying the other treatment next time.
All in all, I am very satisfied with the cut and treatment today. It is almost like Reds, my previous, previous hair salon but more expensive than the one at Toa Payoh Lorong one. This one might be it for me.
Oh yes, forgot to mention that while I was having lunch on the fourth floor food court, I had a nice and full view of the the Thaipusam parade. There was also the Haiti Relief Fund-raising and I did my part but did not stay back to see the performances though. I saw Babe Conde trying out the piano but felt that it would be too late for me if I stayed back to wait for the concert to start at 8pm.
Did I just "all in all"? Well that was for the hairy issues. In general though, I enjoyed my day and am glad to have made it out of the house :)
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Fine line between deal or no deal
Sometimes, I really do find that it is tough to be salesperson. You never what you said or did might just trigger a bad reaction or impression on your potential customer.
I went to a gym tonight under the invitation of an ex-colleague. This particular club has got Jackie Chan as its branding. It has been yonks, and I mean yonks, since I last visited a gym. I was with Planet Fitness before and now it is no longer even existing. It got bought over and was re-named as something else (not going to give free publicity though).
My friend/ ex-colleague introduced me to her personal trainer (PT) and they decided to let me do a fat/muscle/weight thingy. Hmm...it must have been bad coz the PT shook his head and went "Tsk, tsk, tsk..." in a dramatic manner by shaking his head. I suppose he thought that this would spur me on to sign on with the club but it just spouted negativity and I thought to myself that it must have been my fats area (I am conscious about it mah). As much as I know that I am on the plump side, I really do not wish people to make remarks or have such reactions like that. It is a rather sensitive issue.
Anyhow, that "Tsk, tsk, tsk..." and the fact that he said something like "...we can make you more sexy", just did not go down well with me. I suppose there was nothing wrong with what he said, but somehow, to me, there was some negative connotation to it and I quite decided then that I do not want to sign up already, even before the branch manager spoke to me. I mean, am I not already sexy? Duh! Anyway, I feel sexy already so if he meant to say "slimmer", then say so.
The thing is, everyone will have their own idiosyncrasies and their own likes and dislikes of words that should and should not be used. Therefore, I really feel that a service/ sales person's job is 100 times tougher than most others as they need to get the chemistry right with each and every customer.
Maybe though, just maybe, I am fussy. :P
I went to a gym tonight under the invitation of an ex-colleague. This particular club has got Jackie Chan as its branding. It has been yonks, and I mean yonks, since I last visited a gym. I was with Planet Fitness before and now it is no longer even existing. It got bought over and was re-named as something else (not going to give free publicity though).
My friend/ ex-colleague introduced me to her personal trainer (PT) and they decided to let me do a fat/muscle/weight thingy. Hmm...it must have been bad coz the PT shook his head and went "Tsk, tsk, tsk..." in a dramatic manner by shaking his head. I suppose he thought that this would spur me on to sign on with the club but it just spouted negativity and I thought to myself that it must have been my fats area (I am conscious about it mah). As much as I know that I am on the plump side, I really do not wish people to make remarks or have such reactions like that. It is a rather sensitive issue.
Anyhow, that "Tsk, tsk, tsk..." and the fact that he said something like "...we can make you more sexy", just did not go down well with me. I suppose there was nothing wrong with what he said, but somehow, to me, there was some negative connotation to it and I quite decided then that I do not want to sign up already, even before the branch manager spoke to me. I mean, am I not already sexy? Duh! Anyway, I feel sexy already so if he meant to say "slimmer", then say so.
The thing is, everyone will have their own idiosyncrasies and their own likes and dislikes of words that should and should not be used. Therefore, I really feel that a service/ sales person's job is 100 times tougher than most others as they need to get the chemistry right with each and every customer.
Maybe though, just maybe, I am fussy. :P
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Just a poem
Can you see that I am bleeding?
Can you see me pleading?
I am searching for a sign, any answer of any kind.
There isn't any,
It's just my wishful thinking.
I think it is time to move on
And not fret and frown;
About the has and has-beens,
What and what-nots.
I think some would call me totally silly.
As this is a one-sided love only.
But somehow I know that you know.
It's just a matter of: "Let's just try this",
"Or we don't".
Now it's time to set myself free
And not let love and its matters bind me.
It's funny how I am the self-suffering kind,
I need to break this pattern and let me know I am fine.
The earth doth turn and people still breathe.
So if you do not love me,
Let me go, please.
Torture me not with your mind playing games,
With your innocent flirts
And harmless sweet-nothings.
As you protect yourself from possible hurt and pain,
So must I, in my own way.
Think not, will I of you when I am free.
Look not, at my phone when it gives out a 'beep'.
My dreams will not be filled with thee,
My plans will only be for me.
For I must continue to love myself,
My fragile soul and my health.
Adieu to you and all the rest.
Until someone is willing to attest,
And let me know what they feel in their chest.
Whether Cupid has taken his shot,
Or whether he, did not.
Alo bonjour to the new me,
Be strong I say, courage is what I should see.
With any little tiny bits of sadness and heartbreak packed.
I should just leave this poem simply at that.
I think I am going through this phase where I need to convince myself that I am OK. I am fine, really. Especially after I write such poems to express my feelings. I just wished that I had enough courage to go ask this person regarding the way our relationship is going. But due to a previous bad experience (very bad), I have decided never to be the one to make the first move. Ever. I think I am going to move on from here but yet, I am not sure. That's just me though. That's why if I write it down, I am more likely to do so.
Can you see me pleading?
I am searching for a sign, any answer of any kind.
There isn't any,
It's just my wishful thinking.
I think it is time to move on
And not fret and frown;
About the has and has-beens,
What and what-nots.
I think some would call me totally silly.
As this is a one-sided love only.
But somehow I know that you know.
It's just a matter of: "Let's just try this",
"Or we don't".
Now it's time to set myself free
And not let love and its matters bind me.
It's funny how I am the self-suffering kind,
I need to break this pattern and let me know I am fine.
The earth doth turn and people still breathe.
So if you do not love me,
Let me go, please.
Torture me not with your mind playing games,
With your innocent flirts
And harmless sweet-nothings.
As you protect yourself from possible hurt and pain,
So must I, in my own way.
Think not, will I of you when I am free.
Look not, at my phone when it gives out a 'beep'.
My dreams will not be filled with thee,
My plans will only be for me.
For I must continue to love myself,
My fragile soul and my health.
Adieu to you and all the rest.
Until someone is willing to attest,
And let me know what they feel in their chest.
Whether Cupid has taken his shot,
Or whether he, did not.
Alo bonjour to the new me,
Be strong I say, courage is what I should see.
With any little tiny bits of sadness and heartbreak packed.
I should just leave this poem simply at that.
I think I am going through this phase where I need to convince myself that I am OK. I am fine, really. Especially after I write such poems to express my feelings. I just wished that I had enough courage to go ask this person regarding the way our relationship is going. But due to a previous bad experience (very bad), I have decided never to be the one to make the first move. Ever. I think I am going to move on from here but yet, I am not sure. That's just me though. That's why if I write it down, I am more likely to do so.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Wonderful day with friends
Started the day being very apprehensive as I had some things that I had to settle. It was not pleasant and I would not evaluate any further except that all's well that ends well (hopefully I have used it correctly here).
Anyhow, we had dim sum at this very old coffee shop at Thomson and then headed towards Orchard Road where the shopping spree began!! Not before I checked myself mentally and made sure I did not spend too much though.
I saw this rain coat from Springfield that had purple hounds' tooth print and from hundred over dollars, it was only forty plus after discount. I had to keep my eyes shut and not think about it (even though I am still thinking about it now). I did buy some clothes from LVER and this other place at Far East Plaza though. They were all on discount. Oh! Not to forget a T-shirt with French words on it from Uniqlo. Uniqlo is my all-time favourite store.
My favourite part of the day was the dinner we had at The Ship. The Ship is such an old restaurant and yet, it had survived all the economic down turns to still be serving to a full house till this day. I remember my parents bringing me to this restaurant at Bukit Timah Shopping Centre was a really, really little. It is no longer there but I am sure glad it is still around at Shaw Centre.
When I went there last time (which was when I was really little), I remember the booth seats were actually built into this ship! That means, the ship had cut out spaces for the booth seats. This time around, the booth seats still had red cushioned seats but the ship shape is gone. No matter though for we got to eat really nice steaks (nicer than Jack's Place in my opinion). I took the sizzling steak while Spacecake too the Cognac steak, which was spectacular. The minute the Cognac steak was brought to our table, the thought of Switzerland came to mind. I have never had this reaction before. Must be that the smell of the steak was similar to that of those I had in Switzerland.
Good company and good food. What can I say? I had a really satisfying meal. Oh, did I mention that we almost did not manage to get a seat as most of the tables were reserved? We were lucky to have found a place to seat.
Only small boo-boo was that they forgot to ask whether we wanted cream, chives and bacon bits on our baked potato. No matter. I should be going back there soon.
Anyhow, we had dim sum at this very old coffee shop at Thomson and then headed towards Orchard Road where the shopping spree began!! Not before I checked myself mentally and made sure I did not spend too much though.
I saw this rain coat from Springfield that had purple hounds' tooth print and from hundred over dollars, it was only forty plus after discount. I had to keep my eyes shut and not think about it (even though I am still thinking about it now). I did buy some clothes from LVER and this other place at Far East Plaza though. They were all on discount. Oh! Not to forget a T-shirt with French words on it from Uniqlo. Uniqlo is my all-time favourite store.
My favourite part of the day was the dinner we had at The Ship. The Ship is such an old restaurant and yet, it had survived all the economic down turns to still be serving to a full house till this day. I remember my parents bringing me to this restaurant at Bukit Timah Shopping Centre was a really, really little. It is no longer there but I am sure glad it is still around at Shaw Centre.
When I went there last time (which was when I was really little), I remember the booth seats were actually built into this ship! That means, the ship had cut out spaces for the booth seats. This time around, the booth seats still had red cushioned seats but the ship shape is gone. No matter though for we got to eat really nice steaks (nicer than Jack's Place in my opinion). I took the sizzling steak while Spacecake too the Cognac steak, which was spectacular. The minute the Cognac steak was brought to our table, the thought of Switzerland came to mind. I have never had this reaction before. Must be that the smell of the steak was similar to that of those I had in Switzerland.
Good company and good food. What can I say? I had a really satisfying meal. Oh, did I mention that we almost did not manage to get a seat as most of the tables were reserved? We were lucky to have found a place to seat.
Only small boo-boo was that they forgot to ask whether we wanted cream, chives and bacon bits on our baked potato. No matter. I should be going back there soon.
On my own
Last night, I did something I have never done before. I was being brave, I think. I went to meet the friends I had just met on Wednesday at the pub and there were lots of firsts.
First, of course, I went to the pub on my own. Then I almost wanted to go off already, except that I bumped into the girl whom had asked me go to the pub in the first place and she told me where to find the guys. I tried to find the guys but in vain.
I was a nerve wreck and had to go to the toilet to learn to breathe again and to decide whether to continue my search or go home. I could not take it any longer after I came out of the toilet as it had seemed like I have gone round the place 100 times. I decided to go outside the pub to start sms-ing someone. Anyone. Spacecake was one of them people I sms-ed.
She was a friend indeed. She called me almost immediately and after telling her what went on and how I was at a lost, I decide to head towards the MRT. If there were still trains, I would go home. I wanted to give it all up, even after taking a cab down and making all that effort to doll up.
Then I got the guy's sms. He was looking for me and I told him this lie that I was actually at the pub but bumped into my friend and had walked her to the mrt station. Told him I would walk back to meet him. He informed me that he was leaving even as I neared the pub again. Sigh.
Anyhow, the person that I saw who was supposed to be introduced to me, was angry at that time and did not give me a good first impression at all. He was rude too. And young. Too young for me. He wanted to go to New Asia Bar to meet his friend and so we proceeded there. I suspect I botched up his plans to meet his friend earlier, which was perhaps why he was pissed.
After we reached NAB (New Asia Bar), I was left on my own to 'reserve' seats; something that I have never had to do. What was worse is that I did not have a drink in hand. In the end I had to whip out my trusty hand phone to start sms-ing again. It got to a point so bad that I had to delete messages that I did not need.
I was finally rejoined by my 'friends' and they asked me to go to another table where they already had champagne waiting. My 'friends' were all over the place after that and even as they danced, they were all over the place. In the end, I danced alone. Something that I have not done for a long, long time.
I have always gone clubbing with a group of my friends and we usually met somewhere first before going to the club together and we usually only had standing space only and did not have to be sitting all alone without a drink.
All in all, I would rate the night 3 out of 10 but 11 out of 10 for my own courage. I do not know if I will ever do that again, but at least I dare say that I have tried it once, in my life time.
First, of course, I went to the pub on my own. Then I almost wanted to go off already, except that I bumped into the girl whom had asked me go to the pub in the first place and she told me where to find the guys. I tried to find the guys but in vain.
I was a nerve wreck and had to go to the toilet to learn to breathe again and to decide whether to continue my search or go home. I could not take it any longer after I came out of the toilet as it had seemed like I have gone round the place 100 times. I decided to go outside the pub to start sms-ing someone. Anyone. Spacecake was one of them people I sms-ed.
She was a friend indeed. She called me almost immediately and after telling her what went on and how I was at a lost, I decide to head towards the MRT. If there were still trains, I would go home. I wanted to give it all up, even after taking a cab down and making all that effort to doll up.
Then I got the guy's sms. He was looking for me and I told him this lie that I was actually at the pub but bumped into my friend and had walked her to the mrt station. Told him I would walk back to meet him. He informed me that he was leaving even as I neared the pub again. Sigh.
Anyhow, the person that I saw who was supposed to be introduced to me, was angry at that time and did not give me a good first impression at all. He was rude too. And young. Too young for me. He wanted to go to New Asia Bar to meet his friend and so we proceeded there. I suspect I botched up his plans to meet his friend earlier, which was perhaps why he was pissed.
After we reached NAB (New Asia Bar), I was left on my own to 'reserve' seats; something that I have never had to do. What was worse is that I did not have a drink in hand. In the end I had to whip out my trusty hand phone to start sms-ing again. It got to a point so bad that I had to delete messages that I did not need.
I was finally rejoined by my 'friends' and they asked me to go to another table where they already had champagne waiting. My 'friends' were all over the place after that and even as they danced, they were all over the place. In the end, I danced alone. Something that I have not done for a long, long time.
I have always gone clubbing with a group of my friends and we usually met somewhere first before going to the club together and we usually only had standing space only and did not have to be sitting all alone without a drink.
All in all, I would rate the night 3 out of 10 but 11 out of 10 for my own courage. I do not know if I will ever do that again, but at least I dare say that I have tried it once, in my life time.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Networking again
It was Wednesday. I was supposed to have class, but my lecturer was sick. We were given a set of instructions to finish up our draft of our play kit and send it to her. That was easy. We have already done most of it and was well on our way to completing the group assignment.
We could leave once the discussion was done and the draft sent to her (our lecturer). I was invited to go to KPO. I have long lost touch with clubbing and pubbing scene but welcomed the fact that I had a chance to go.
It's been a long time since I drank and it's been a long time since I went out to meet new friends. Last night though, was rather an enjoyable time, with no expectations and not much pressure. I must admit, I was nervous though. I did not know where to put my arms and hands. I had wanted to cross my arms but that would seem too defensive. I wanted to put my hands into my pocket but I remembered reading somewhere that it was not right to do so either. Boy! Was I feeling hot when I first got there!
Anyway, KPO represents Killiney Post Office. Nice place to hang out and chill and I like there music too. Met an American, a Cambodian, a French and some locals. I don't know about the rest but I had an enjoyable time and I am praying hard that I do not get a hangover tomorrow.
What's most important is that I am starting to make new friends again. I'm a little bit apprehensive but also looking forward to brushing up my networking skills.
Oh yes@ I got to practise my very rusty French too! Wish me luck!
We could leave once the discussion was done and the draft sent to her (our lecturer). I was invited to go to KPO. I have long lost touch with clubbing and pubbing scene but welcomed the fact that I had a chance to go.
It's been a long time since I drank and it's been a long time since I went out to meet new friends. Last night though, was rather an enjoyable time, with no expectations and not much pressure. I must admit, I was nervous though. I did not know where to put my arms and hands. I had wanted to cross my arms but that would seem too defensive. I wanted to put my hands into my pocket but I remembered reading somewhere that it was not right to do so either. Boy! Was I feeling hot when I first got there!
Anyway, KPO represents Killiney Post Office. Nice place to hang out and chill and I like there music too. Met an American, a Cambodian, a French and some locals. I don't know about the rest but I had an enjoyable time and I am praying hard that I do not get a hangover tomorrow.
What's most important is that I am starting to make new friends again. I'm a little bit apprehensive but also looking forward to brushing up my networking skills.
Oh yes@ I got to practise my very rusty French too! Wish me luck!
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
My Tuesday
Nothing much happened today but I thought I might just back track a little and tell everyone that I just confirmed after my first 3 months with the company and that I got a little pay raise. This to me, is a bonus. Words like 'bonus', 'variable bonus' and such sounds strange to my ears and seem like from another life but it is back. Even though I am not sure whether I would be getting any, but at least this company does have such a thing as bonus.
My love life is still as empty as... . Well, I guess I just have to thank God that I am still alive and well. I should really channel my energies into looking at the things and the people I have around me and not the have-nots.
I spent the evening having dinner with Dad and his friend at Botak Jones next to SPH. That place is a quaint little place with international food fare. There is your local tzi cha, Indian briyani, wanton noodles, Italian pizza and pasta, and of course, Botak Jones. Nice little nook. Yummy dinner (especially their cheezy potato!) and good company. A perfect round up for a very tiring day at work. Except, I should be hanging with people more my age! Hahahaha! No lah, of course, the old fogies are fine exept if I want to find a partner of my own, I should start hanging out with a different set! Kekekekeke.....
My love life is still as empty as... . Well, I guess I just have to thank God that I am still alive and well. I should really channel my energies into looking at the things and the people I have around me and not the have-nots.
I spent the evening having dinner with Dad and his friend at Botak Jones next to SPH. That place is a quaint little place with international food fare. There is your local tzi cha, Indian briyani, wanton noodles, Italian pizza and pasta, and of course, Botak Jones. Nice little nook. Yummy dinner (especially their cheezy potato!) and good company. A perfect round up for a very tiring day at work. Except, I should be hanging with people more my age! Hahahaha! No lah, of course, the old fogies are fine exept if I want to find a partner of my own, I should start hanging out with a different set! Kekekekeke.....
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Guangzhou pics
My favourite photo and one that my friends find cute and the food, yummy :)
The Ho Ancestral Hall being given a major revamp due to the upcoming Asian Games, Guangzhou 2010 to be held this year.
My favourite food. One of them anyway. The skin of the dumpling is made with fish meat. It is chewy and 'bouncy' and one bowl of 15 dumplings only cost SGD1.00!!!
Bread Talk on Beijing Road. Many of my China friends don't even know that this Singaporean bread shop has already been in China for some years now. Well, I got to know it by watching Taiwanese Cable programmes :P
Another yummy dish that I ate on the first night of arrival. It was brinjal with some kind of sauce. In the sauce there were fried minced pork mixed with salted egg yolk. It was absolute heaven, especially in cold weather!! I am salivating now... .
Walk through the 'hood
It's the weekend. I was supposed to have spent a nice day walking at Macritchie. Instead, I walked to Balestier Road to eat not-so-nice mee pok and took a bus to Pek Kio Hawker Centre for coffee and marketing after that.
Why? Because I overslept. But I am not really complaining coz I spent the morning with Dad. I also realised that I started the new year's blog on a depressing note, but I could not help it. I was. With God's grace though, I am learning to regulate and cope with everything on my plate.
I seem to be disliked and shunned at most places but at least work wise, I got a confirmation and a slight pay rise, which is cause for celebration.
What's more? I am planning a trip to Amsterdam to visit my friend and to the A-Ha! farewell concert! How exciting can that be?? Very exciting. Only thing I have to straighten out now is my practicum for my course as I am not sure whether it will end the same time my course date ends or it will commence after my end of course date. No one, until now, can give me a straight answer. Anyhows, I will keep my fingers crossed and plan with caution first.
As the Lunar year is coming to an end, I hope all the bad stuff will go off soon and the good stuff will come soon.
Why? Because I overslept. But I am not really complaining coz I spent the morning with Dad. I also realised that I started the new year's blog on a depressing note, but I could not help it. I was. With God's grace though, I am learning to regulate and cope with everything on my plate.
I seem to be disliked and shunned at most places but at least work wise, I got a confirmation and a slight pay rise, which is cause for celebration.
What's more? I am planning a trip to Amsterdam to visit my friend and to the A-Ha! farewell concert! How exciting can that be?? Very exciting. Only thing I have to straighten out now is my practicum for my course as I am not sure whether it will end the same time my course date ends or it will commence after my end of course date. No one, until now, can give me a straight answer. Anyhows, I will keep my fingers crossed and plan with caution first.
As the Lunar year is coming to an end, I hope all the bad stuff will go off soon and the good stuff will come soon.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Depressed
Yes, that is how I am feeling right now. I did say that I shall not bother with things of love and lust but there is this person that I have loved for so long that...I feel depressed coz I don't think I will ever see a future with this person.
There is a lot of negativity in me. There are lots of negative thoughts: That I am not worthy, that I do not have inner beauty, etc, etc. I need to cast all these away as the more depressed I get, the harder it is for me to get better. My cough and sinuses, I mean.
I can look at it in both ways: Either that I had a bad start to the new year or that I am having a bad end to my lunar year and that only better things will come soon after. I really hope it is the latter. Sigh... .
There is a lot of negativity in me. There are lots of negative thoughts: That I am not worthy, that I do not have inner beauty, etc, etc. I need to cast all these away as the more depressed I get, the harder it is for me to get better. My cough and sinuses, I mean.
I can look at it in both ways: Either that I had a bad start to the new year or that I am having a bad end to my lunar year and that only better things will come soon after. I really hope it is the latter. Sigh... .
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