Handmade vanilla ice cream!

Did this about two weeks ago but as usual,too lazy to download the pictures. I made my first ice cream without putting it into the freezer. It was a lot of hard work though. I had to shake and rub like crazy. Not to mention that halfway through, my Ziplock bag broke and salt was 'cutting' my hands.

What should I do?

How am I going to celebrate all the good stuff that is coming my way? Well, I wanted to go clubbing and karaoke-ing but these would be pushed back for now.

For a start, I went for a nice chatty dinner wtih Spacecake. It was catch up time and I was bursting with stuff about my own life. Hope she did not find me too boring a company.

Then she gave me a lacquer box from a neighbouring country. On the very nice box was a dragonfly. According to her, dragonfly signifies love in that country. Thanks Spacecake, I am sure love will take flight, when it comes and happens :) Meanwhile though, I am still in the state of being happy coz I am free (almost).

Oh! Then of course, I booked my flight out for a short holiday in one of those Indonesian islands and another to KL. These are little 'presents' for myself. I am also considering checking in to one of the local boutique hotels for a mini celebration as well :)

Today in court

Today, no yesterday, I went to court. It was my first time and hopefully last time that I was in one. I was a bundle of nerves. First, I was not sure where the Family court was and then I was so intimidated by all those lawyers in white shirts and black jackets that I literally froze up.

It should have been an easy thing, just like my lawyer assured me. Somehow though, I just got all nervous. Maybe it is because I was worried that I would not know how to 'swear' in front of the judge. Or that something might just go wrong somehow.

It should also be easy since I was not the first one to go. There was supposed to be one other guy before me. Turns out there were two persons before me instead. Nevertheless, I was thankful in that I could 'observe' some more.

The funniest thing happened during the time when I was swearing to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. While holding up my right hand, I had to touch the Bible with my left. Some funny energy surged through me through my left hand (could just be my imagination).

That energy transformed into a whole plethora of emotions. While my lawyer was asking all the questions that she had briefed me before, my whole marriage life seemed to flash before me. I was choking up, but I controlled myself.

My slot in court was 2.30pm but the Judge was late and there were two before me. I still managed to get out of court by about 2.50pm. As I walked down the stairs out of the Family Court, I was just flooded with emotion and relief. I had to tell myself that life is going to be better. I had to brush away the stray tear or two.

It is so strange, since I am supposed to be detached from it all. I should have left all that emotional crap when I walked out that door about 4 years ago. I should be void of all emotions regarding this matter by now, but yet, I am only human I suppose.

This is only interim judgement or some such stuff like that. I still have to wait for 3 months before final judgement is made.

Many things happening

I know it has been a while, but I am really so swamped with work, with school, with house-hunting.

Yes, house-hunting. I know that I swore never to buy another property as long as I lived, that I was going to up and go any time that I wanted to, but I finally succumbed to the prospect of having a property to my name (or at least part of it).

I was house-hunting almost all of last weekend and it has been a big rollercoaster ride ever since. We thought we have found the perfect house and then we had to worry about financing and now that my job does not pay me sky high salary (not that my first one was super fantastic anyway), I find myself stuck with almost nowhere to go.

Anyway, let's see what's going to happen.

Flu blues and my ignorance

Sigh...I am down with flu. Actually, I am already coming towards the end of my flu. I thought it was the usual nosey business where it gets hypersensitive and I only needed to treat it with Zyrtec. Turns out not.

My doc told me that I caught the Influenza A! Imagine my shock as the Influenza A (H1N1) is going on! Turns out that I was misinformed. Influenza A is a name for the common flu (if I am not wrong, it is the winter flu). It is just that this particular strain, H1N1 is dangerous, for now.

Anyway, I am stuck here at home, wondering whether I should go for classes tonight, since I am covered with MC. Nevertheless, it is just the second lesson of the new module and the teacher is quite interesting. Tough choice, tough choice.

Strangest feeling

I have thought that I am void of all feelings towards the opposite sex. I thought I would not be affected at all. Turns out that I am still partly human after all.

Just a few days back, one of my new colleagues was so cute and so sweet! She asked me point blank whether I had a boyfriend or not. My reply was negative and she immediately told me that she wanted to introduce a friend of hers to me.

It was a funny kind of feeling as, I would have been very repulsed towards such 'things' before. Yet, that day, I was full of curiosity and interest and yet, afraid all at the same time. I remember asking her how old the guy was, what he was doing and lots more other questions like that.

I would not reveal too much except that the guy is so much younger than I am. Just wondering how "I" am going to handle this since I have a little phobia of younger guys, let alone much younger ones!

Nevertheless, I also revealed to this new colleague of mine (who is slightly younger than me) that I am not a clean slate. That I have things to settle before I can move on to other things. I can be upfront about it now. She too was very nice to check with the guy friend and he was ok to be friends with me.

She did ask me for my phone number but I did not commit to anything...yet.

It is funny coz I am already getting a fuzzy feeling even though nothing, not even friendship, has started. I guess it's the thought that counts.