Views about life and relationships

It has been a crazy week, or even months, but I think God is helping me along, edging me on with every waking hour.

Other than going for my belly dancing and ceramic classes, I hooked up with my University friend on Facebook and we caught on over the phone. She too is now divorced but has just gotten married again because she got pregnant. She told of a long story of betrayed love. long court cases (still fighting at the moment) and the fact that she had little faith in love or marriage (even though she is in one now).

While I am happy for her that she is married and pregnant with child, I cannot help but feel that God was sending me a message: that I should really wait out and be patient with finding Mr. so-called Right. OK, I know, I am beginning to sound like Sumiko Tan from Straights Times, always lamenting about how she cannot find a decent boyfriend. No, I do not like her columns and no, I do not want to lament. I think I have come to a stage that I can say that I am comfortable with who I am at the moment and what I am doing in my life. There is no guarantee that I will not want to find someone special to keep me company somewhere down the road, but at least now, I am not worried or in such a hurry to find myself a partner.

Not sure if I have mentioned this before, but I am at the stage of self-discovery and at my age, learning to really live as a whole person. Sometimes, it is not easy,having to cope with parents, colleagues and so on, but every step is a learning process.

I am learning to truly live in, and learn from these learning processes and enjoying it every moment. If there were bad moments, I now have mum to fall back on, where previously we were not able to really talk to each other, she advises me on how to handle everyday human relations. We do not always see eye to eye but I feel real close to her just by having these heart-to-heart talks.