By the way, my train ride to Danga may have to be postponed indefinitely. Dad is so big on mahjong (actually my cousin is, so much so that she even arranged for my morning portion to be covered as I have to work) that he decided that he would not be able to wake up early enough on Sunday, the day after mahjong.
It's a bummer that I have to work this Saturday. I don't actually work on Saturdays but this is a special day and we all have to go back, working or not working, alternate or not alternate.
Well, I guess Danga will have to wait!
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Progess thus far
I contacted my lawyer today. Going to hand her the documents tomorrow. Not me of course, my Dad is going to do it. Keeping my fingers crossed that everything will go smoothly henceforth.
I have been diverting my attention so far, by making travel plans to neighbouring countries and islands. Hopefully this would keep me sane for a while :)
I have been diverting my attention so far, by making travel plans to neighbouring countries and islands. Hopefully this would keep me sane for a while :)
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
One step closer still
I got it. He has come over to pass me the necessary documents. Now it is time for me to ask my lawyer to get to work.
Sounds real funny and, to a certain extent, mean, but I am feeling very excited now that all this is under way. There is a kind of tingly feeling crawling under my skin, urging me to finish this unfinished business.
Somehow, I just wished that when I opened my eyes tomorrow, it would be four months later and I do not need to go to court at all. Of course, I have to do that.
It was a little strange, seeing him again, under such familial circumstances.
Sounds real funny and, to a certain extent, mean, but I am feeling very excited now that all this is under way. There is a kind of tingly feeling crawling under my skin, urging me to finish this unfinished business.
Somehow, I just wished that when I opened my eyes tomorrow, it would be four months later and I do not need to go to court at all. Of course, I have to do that.
It was a little strange, seeing him again, under such familial circumstances.
Soon, soon...
Well, my soon-to-be ex will be passing me the relevant documents soon. Once that is done, it will be about 3 to 4 months before I am a totally free woman again.
It's funny how, that when it comes to this point of time, that I should feel that he is quite nice. However, I should not be fooled by the fact that he is said that he "loved me". After all, I was the one who wanted this, so there is no turning back.
My calm is still there but my panic is now reserved for my assignment that is going to be due in three weeks. Man! There is so much to do in such little time! It is not as if I did not want to start it earlier but the lecturer only gave us full details yesterday. Bummer.
It's funny how, that when it comes to this point of time, that I should feel that he is quite nice. However, I should not be fooled by the fact that he is said that he "loved me". After all, I was the one who wanted this, so there is no turning back.
My calm is still there but my panic is now reserved for my assignment that is going to be due in three weeks. Man! There is so much to do in such little time! It is not as if I did not want to start it earlier but the lecturer only gave us full details yesterday. Bummer.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Mini trips
Well after all that philosophical bull crap, time to let you guys in on some of my wonderlust. No where far, just a stone's throw away from home: Johor Baru.
Dad has been talking about Danga Mall for some weeks now. Even my China colleagues are talking about it. They want me to be 'tour guide' to them. Those who know me will know I am a little 'kayu'(sort of like a scaredy cat in Malay) and so I have decided to go there to recce out the place first. Hehe... .
We would be taking the train from Tanjong Pagar. Yeah!! I love trains. I have a strange aversion towards them, even though I was 'scared' by the black holes of the toilets when I was very, very little. It was also on my way to Malaysia. Cameron Highlands, my mum tells me. Apparently I was really urgent but upon seeing the black hole of a squatting toilet bowl, I decided to hold till I reached my destination. Don't ask me how I did it :P
Back to trains: I really fell in love with trains three years back when I was doing research on Puffing Billy before I went for my Melbourne trip. It really got me interested in steam engines.
Anyhow, I hope my trip to Danga City Mall next week will come to fruition. I will update it in my blog if I do go!
Dad has been talking about Danga Mall for some weeks now. Even my China colleagues are talking about it. They want me to be 'tour guide' to them. Those who know me will know I am a little 'kayu'(sort of like a scaredy cat in Malay) and so I have decided to go there to recce out the place first. Hehe... .
We would be taking the train from Tanjong Pagar. Yeah!! I love trains. I have a strange aversion towards them, even though I was 'scared' by the black holes of the toilets when I was very, very little. It was also on my way to Malaysia. Cameron Highlands, my mum tells me. Apparently I was really urgent but upon seeing the black hole of a squatting toilet bowl, I decided to hold till I reached my destination. Don't ask me how I did it :P
Back to trains: I really fell in love with trains three years back when I was doing research on Puffing Billy before I went for my Melbourne trip. It really got me interested in steam engines.
Anyhow, I hope my trip to Danga City Mall next week will come to fruition. I will update it in my blog if I do go!
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Smile and live the adventure
I was talking to a friend today and from what this friend was saying and doing, I suddenly had an 'ah-ha' moment. This friend (let's call the person A), to me, is not really living in the moment and is looking for a feeling, a process, that A feels should be sort after. By searching for these feelings and ideal situations, A (to me at least), already lost that moment.
Maybe to put it simply, A is not living in the present.
It dawned on me that life is an adventure, journey or what you might like to call it. No matter how bitter or sweet it is, I, at least I myself, should enjoy doing it. Or rather, I should try to be "present" in that experience, no matter how horrible or good it is.
It is in being fully present that I can come out of the experience, hopefully a better person, as in, I have experienced it (not necessarily in an advantageous way, say an argument, for example. I might have lost it). I learn from it. Hopefully then, I would become wiser, and thus a better person.
Sounds too philosophical in my own silly way? Perhaps. Maybe it is because I am just going through that sort of period in my life right now.
I am calm and happy, but in that calmness, I am a little worried whether this is the calm before the storm. Yet I know that even if the storm does come, I should still be able to weather it.
To all my friends and whoever is reading this: smile, if you are facing a very happy phase in your life and smile, if you think you are going through the worst. It can be a cynical smile at first but if you tried harder and genuinely smiled from the heart, I think you would realise a smile can take away a lot more stress and worries than you think it could :)
Maybe to put it simply, A is not living in the present.
It dawned on me that life is an adventure, journey or what you might like to call it. No matter how bitter or sweet it is, I, at least I myself, should enjoy doing it. Or rather, I should try to be "present" in that experience, no matter how horrible or good it is.
It is in being fully present that I can come out of the experience, hopefully a better person, as in, I have experienced it (not necessarily in an advantageous way, say an argument, for example. I might have lost it). I learn from it. Hopefully then, I would become wiser, and thus a better person.
Sounds too philosophical in my own silly way? Perhaps. Maybe it is because I am just going through that sort of period in my life right now.
I am calm and happy, but in that calmness, I am a little worried whether this is the calm before the storm. Yet I know that even if the storm does come, I should still be able to weather it.
To all my friends and whoever is reading this: smile, if you are facing a very happy phase in your life and smile, if you think you are going through the worst. It can be a cynical smile at first but if you tried harder and genuinely smiled from the heart, I think you would realise a smile can take away a lot more stress and worries than you think it could :)
If we hold on together
It's interesting how the song "If we hold on together" by Diana Ross started playing on Class 95 when I was writing a letter to my soon-to-be ex. This song was sung when I attended the Beginning Experience retreat, a retreat for people who are going through divorce or are suffering the loss of a loved one.
The lyrics are beautiful and so I thought I should record it down in my blog:
If We Hold On Together
Don’t lose your way
With each passing day
You’ve come so far
Don’t throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i
Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Somebody's praying
Please let us come home to stay
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i
When we are out there in the dark
We’ll dream about the sun
In the dark we’ll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and i
The lyrics are beautiful and so I thought I should record it down in my blog:
If We Hold On Together
Don’t lose your way
With each passing day
You’ve come so far
Don’t throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i
Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Somebody's praying
Please let us come home to stay
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i
When we are out there in the dark
We’ll dream about the sun
In the dark we’ll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and i
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