Today in court

Today, no yesterday, I went to court. It was my first time and hopefully last time that I was in one. I was a bundle of nerves. First, I was not sure where the Family court was and then I was so intimidated by all those lawyers in white shirts and black jackets that I literally froze up.

It should have been an easy thing, just like my lawyer assured me. Somehow though, I just got all nervous. Maybe it is because I was worried that I would not know how to 'swear' in front of the judge. Or that something might just go wrong somehow.

It should also be easy since I was not the first one to go. There was supposed to be one other guy before me. Turns out there were two persons before me instead. Nevertheless, I was thankful in that I could 'observe' some more.

The funniest thing happened during the time when I was swearing to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. While holding up my right hand, I had to touch the Bible with my left. Some funny energy surged through me through my left hand (could just be my imagination).

That energy transformed into a whole plethora of emotions. While my lawyer was asking all the questions that she had briefed me before, my whole marriage life seemed to flash before me. I was choking up, but I controlled myself.

My slot in court was 2.30pm but the Judge was late and there were two before me. I still managed to get out of court by about 2.50pm. As I walked down the stairs out of the Family Court, I was just flooded with emotion and relief. I had to tell myself that life is going to be better. I had to brush away the stray tear or two.

It is so strange, since I am supposed to be detached from it all. I should have left all that emotional crap when I walked out that door about 4 years ago. I should be void of all emotions regarding this matter by now, but yet, I am only human I suppose.

This is only interim judgement or some such stuff like that. I still have to wait for 3 months before final judgement is made.

Many things happening

I know it has been a while, but I am really so swamped with work, with school, with house-hunting.

Yes, house-hunting. I know that I swore never to buy another property as long as I lived, that I was going to up and go any time that I wanted to, but I finally succumbed to the prospect of having a property to my name (or at least part of it).

I was house-hunting almost all of last weekend and it has been a big rollercoaster ride ever since. We thought we have found the perfect house and then we had to worry about financing and now that my job does not pay me sky high salary (not that my first one was super fantastic anyway), I find myself stuck with almost nowhere to go.

Anyway, let's see what's going to happen.

Flu blues and my ignorance

Sigh...I am down with flu. Actually, I am already coming towards the end of my flu. I thought it was the usual nosey business where it gets hypersensitive and I only needed to treat it with Zyrtec. Turns out not.

My doc told me that I caught the Influenza A! Imagine my shock as the Influenza A (H1N1) is going on! Turns out that I was misinformed. Influenza A is a name for the common flu (if I am not wrong, it is the winter flu). It is just that this particular strain, H1N1 is dangerous, for now.

Anyway, I am stuck here at home, wondering whether I should go for classes tonight, since I am covered with MC. Nevertheless, it is just the second lesson of the new module and the teacher is quite interesting. Tough choice, tough choice.

Strangest feeling

I have thought that I am void of all feelings towards the opposite sex. I thought I would not be affected at all. Turns out that I am still partly human after all.

Just a few days back, one of my new colleagues was so cute and so sweet! She asked me point blank whether I had a boyfriend or not. My reply was negative and she immediately told me that she wanted to introduce a friend of hers to me.

It was a funny kind of feeling as, I would have been very repulsed towards such 'things' before. Yet, that day, I was full of curiosity and interest and yet, afraid all at the same time. I remember asking her how old the guy was, what he was doing and lots more other questions like that.

I would not reveal too much except that the guy is so much younger than I am. Just wondering how "I" am going to handle this since I have a little phobia of younger guys, let alone much younger ones!

Nevertheless, I also revealed to this new colleague of mine (who is slightly younger than me) that I am not a clean slate. That I have things to settle before I can move on to other things. I can be upfront about it now. She too was very nice to check with the guy friend and he was ok to be friends with me.

She did ask me for my phone number but I did not commit to anything...yet.

It is funny coz I am already getting a fuzzy feeling even though nothing, not even friendship, has started. I guess it's the thought that counts.

Give me my space!

Today, for the very first time in my life, I told a salesperson off. You know? The type of salesperson who comes and tells you that you have too many blackheads or that you are too fat? Those that are in pharmacies and such?

This happened at Watson's Takashimaya. My colleague had wanted to buy some colour dye to dye her hair at home (cheaper this way).

The moment we were standing at that particular section, this middle-aged woman comes forward to ask us, "Looking for some shampoo for your hair?"

Let me tell you, her body language was already not quite right, but what followed was even worse. She saw us walking towards the hair dye section and moved up closer to us and asked, "Looking for hair dyes is it?"

She then stood even closer till I had to edge back a little and worse still she was standing like a gangster, weight on one leg and one shoulder tilted at an angle towards us, as if asking us, "What's up? Want to fight is it?"

I was boiling and I think I had enough of all these types of lousy sales tactics that should have been gotten rid of ten, twenty years ago. I do not know where I got my guts from but I proceeded to tell her off, "Please do not stand so close. Back off. We will see for ourselves. If you continue to stand here, I might just move away and not buy anything!"

I think she was so shocked at me barking at her like that, that she really backed off for quite a while.

Even though I feel quite back for telling her off like that, but I feel that I have suppressed my unhappiness for such situations that I was going to burst if I held my opinion to myself any longer.

Anyhow, I felt much better after that.

Another song that I like. This is the original version.

Song of the moment

This is my favourite song of the moment.